I am a different parent, a better parent, because of you. My life taught me planning, competition, organization, and logic. I think I would have been a good parent. I would have scheduled our lives together and they would have been amazing. I would have read every book and charted every moment. Your absence has taught me see life differently, though. Instead, I force myself to slow down and enjoy the minutia of daily life with your brother. Instead of reading the books that tell me what is suppose to happen, I focus on watching it unfold in front of me.
I will always miss and long for the moments we never had together, sweet baby girl. Today, I work hard to focus that energy on appreciating the moments I do have.
I love you, and I hold you forever in my heart.